Pride in yourself

There is a world out there
where innocence is not spared.
There is a time that comes
when life tells you beware.
There is a step you take
thats neither here nor there.
There is a season that starts
that seems to have no end.
There is a track you choose
that has only one bend.
Take care to choose wisely
as concequences only you must bear.
And be proud of your choices
as they make you who you are.

Treat me like a child

Needy eyes big and wide
secrets and mysteries
hidden inside
an active mind
so young yet old
thoughts are treasures
to behold
a wonderous glide
into the heart
sweet n naughty
tantalizingly nice
full to the brim
sugar and spice
I can be a handfull
thats all there is to say
So treat me like a child
I'ts better this way ......

dedicated to my friends

I discovered something
about myself
just the other day
I'm jubilant about the fact
That I can make you sway.
You, my friend
may not realise
the love I have for you.
If we want ,
together we can win the whole world through,
Earlier my sentiments
were pretty much confused
But now I am sure about the fact
That I love being friends with you.

child

With tear filled eyes,
and tortured emotions,
I am a child
with battered thoughts
and confused commotion
in my heart,
No one knows
whats goes on within me,
with tear streaked cheeks
i crave affection
with misplaced smile
and truthful lies
I want love
not fake devotion
with smouldering embers
of fiery anguish,
I am a child in a wrecked position...

Written when i was 18 :) based on a book i read which affected me deeply

Crying Heart

Lingering doubts
Cloud my mind
at thoughts of all
thats left behind
The searing pain
of love thats lost
the treasured tears
that know no cost
the heart decieves
the soul derives
from the fathomless torture
of the heart that cries

Cruel Deceptions

Staring at the cloudy sky
i wandered into oblivion
thoughts colliding of before and now
who was i and what am i ?

where did i go wrong with u?
why does this seperation eat me from inside?
i know im always not so nice
but friendship doesnt come at a price

and if it was a price u wanted
y didnt u just let me know
instead of tearing urself away from me
Instead of just letting go.....

when i trusted u with my heart and soul
when pleasing u was my ultimate goal
now because of u im hard like stone
i want to melt , i want to glow

but something inside holds me back
reminds me of that bitter pact
which changed my life entirely
when u said good bye for eternity

all i needed was a helping hand
a shoulder to cry on
an ear to hear my weathered pleas
and lips to utter sheer sympathy

all i needed was a friend and freindship so true
which i had asked and expected from u
but my dear u let me down
u crushed my heart and tore my soul

and today forever i let u go
every memory and time we shared
i cleansed myself from u
and from today forever i feel free and say to the world See the NEW ME :)

Confusions

When dreams are all i see
i wish to be free
i wish to fly in the open sky
and seek tranquility...

i have been watching
the shadows flitter by
the darkness the emptyness
surrounding me

i have been hoping
for an escape
for a guiding light
i have been waiting for tommorows all my life

i want to breathe
the freshly scented breeze
i want to see purity
but all i see is an endless road
on which i must walk all alone.

I seek your hand
to help me through
Ur love to make me strong
and i know u will stand by me
for thats where you belong.

Getting married on the 9th of june 2005 :p so pretty nervous
my weird thoughts and confusions