Saturday, 15 January 2011

Mums Daily and Crescendo- Food for thought


Once upon a time , where basically all stories start from , it was just you and me and our little tangent of reality.
Then it became we, and from we to being Us was a remarkably short distance and now we stand as a family .
Some people maybe content to explore thier tangent because its safe ,
but some like me want to conquer the whole sphere, making life perfect for those around us.
But perfection bears a high cost , it means less sleep , more work , more lists and organizing, more fretting , and to the bystander it would seem
'Why the heck do u wanna make life more difficult than it already is'

But thats where a Mother steps in. Every thing runs flawlessly when you look towards her .
And I say this only now that i have my own kids because thats when u really learn to appreciate the struggle ur own mother goes through. The time she could have spent on her self is devoted to bringing up her kids , but there is always a but , i fail to understand where such mothers come in who are so wrapped up in themselves that they cannot see past who they are to those around them.

It makes me wonder what the kids go through whose mom is so engrossed in her own world that for her its just a matter of giving birth, and then let everyone around her shoulder the burden of bringing up her kids , as if she has done the world a big favour.

It stuns me to see the level of ignorance a mom can give her child, beacuse to me there is a fine line between possesive and obsessive and being organized and its so easy to over step that line and when organized can become obsessive it would be hard to fathom.

There are some mothers who can be so obsessed with thier child/children that it can be suffocating to just wat`ch them```, where as some can be so flighty , that its just a matter of where to dump the child , in mum-in laws lap or her own mother's so she can venture out on her own jaunts.

Its understandable if a mother has to work then she has to share the burden with some one , but if she does not have to work out side the house , then I fail to understand why she can't cope with her kids . No woman is perfect, I certainly don't claim to be , but atleast where my kids are concerned , I make them my first priority.
What type of a person do you think you are or will be ???

Wednesday, 10 March 2010

Pride in yourself

There is a world out there
where innocence is not spared.
There is a time that comes
when life tells you beware.
There is a step you take
thats neither here nor there.
There is a season that starts
that seems to have no end.
There is a track you choose
that has only one bend.
Take care to choose wisely
as concequences only you must bear.
And be proud of your choices
as they make you who you are.

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

Treat me like a child

Needy eyes big and wide
secrets and mysteries
hidden inside
an active mind
so young yet old
thoughts are treasures
to behold
a wonderous glide
into the heart
sweet n naughty
tantalizingly nice
full to the brim
sugar and spice
I can be a handfull
thats all there is to say
So treat me like a child
I'ts better this way ......

dedicated to my friends

I discovered something
about myself
just the other day
I'm jubilant about the fact
That I can make you sway.
You, my friend
may not realise
the love I have for you.
If we want ,
together we can win the whole world through,
Earlier my sentiments
were pretty much confused
But now I am sure about the fact
That I love being friends with you.

child

With tear filled eyes,
and tortured emotions,
I am a child
with battered thoughts
and confused commotion
in my heart,
No one knows
whats goes on within me,
with tear streaked cheeks
i crave affection
with misplaced smile
and truthful lies
I want love
not fake devotion
with smouldering embers
of fiery anguish,
I am a child in a wrecked position...

Written when i was 18 :) based on a book i read which affected me deeply

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

Crying Heart

Lingering doubts
Cloud my mind
at thoughts of all
thats left behind
The searing pain
of love thats lost
the treasured tears
that know no cost
the heart decieves
the soul derives
from the fathomless torture
of the heart that cries

Cruel Deceptions

Staring at the cloudy sky
i wandered into oblivion
thoughts colliding of before and now
who was i and what am i ?

where did i go wrong with u?
why does this seperation eat me from inside?
i know im always not so nice
but friendship doesnt come at a price

and if it was a price u wanted
y didnt u just let me know
instead of tearing urself away from me
Instead of just letting go.....

when i trusted u with my heart and soul
when pleasing u was my ultimate goal
now because of u im hard like stone
i want to melt , i want to glow

but something inside holds me back
reminds me of that bitter pact
which changed my life entirely
when u said good bye for eternity

all i needed was a helping hand
a shoulder to cry on
an ear to hear my weathered pleas
and lips to utter sheer sympathy

all i needed was a friend and freindship so true
which i had asked and expected from u
but my dear u let me down
u crushed my heart and tore my soul

and today forever i let u go
every memory and time we shared
i cleansed myself from u
and from today forever i feel free and say to the world See the NEW ME :)